(Original post date: December 30th, 2010)
If you can let go that easily, then the fault of the hurt I feel lies in myself for I placed more weight and value on our friendship than you ever did — this is how I felt for the last few months of 2010. But I’ve come to the realization (at the advice of close friends) that some friendships are disposable and rather small in significance compared to the life-long ones I should be focused on. I shouldn’t have gotten so hung up on the miscommunication, misunderstandings and general confusion that occurred. No doubt it has greatly affected my emotions, but I’ve learned to look at the bigger picture. Perhaps this is all for the better. I can’t change people’s pre-conceptions of me. I’ve got to tell myself to let things go more easily… or put less weight on my friendships and not expect so much in return from friends. (Funny, this sounds exactly like a post back in March)
While men were busy growing mustaches in November, I was running around the city catching shows – 14, to be exact. I think that was the height of my entertainment expenses this year, at $113 for tickets alone.
October had me working on 3 film shoots. I also attended my very first VIFF and pumpkin patch, and saw Chantal Kreviazuk live with the VSO.
September was a busy month. I was away for 5 days on Bowen Island shooting a film the first week school started, which was right after I went on a 4-day road trip on Vancouver Island with my family. Then I worked on another film shoot and at Woodward’s.
The two summer months of July and August were all work and not really any play. It felt like I was working full-time at our school that had yet to open then. But I did get to see Joan Jett live at the PNE at the end of August, and I managed to pass my summer linguistics class without going to 3/4 of the lectures (there goes my tuition!) OOOh, I almost forgot: I stage managed Resounding Scream Theatre’s production of Brink: a farce tragedy. And apparently I started being a fan of The Veronicas (thanks, Joyce).
May and June were chillaxing months. Except for the occasional shifts at work, shows, film screenings and a private screening of my film Straight Forward, my calendar looks pretty blank…
I think I was still finishing my video back in April. I was taking 3 classes, saw a couple of shows and attended a birthday party over which I lost a dear friend. Later in the year (just a couple of months ago) we got over it and became friends again… though I’m pretty sure all her friends still hate me.
March was a busy birthday month although I don’t think I was busy playing Santa. Other than shooting my video and school, nothing much happened.
Vancouver was decked in Olympic spirit in February. I wasn’t especially ecstatic but I enjoyed it. I went to see a whole bunch of free shows at the Place des Francophone on Granville Island. And during those two weeks off I AD’d a film.
January marked my employment with SFU Woodward’s. I also worked on a 4th-year film (I am now 4th-year myself). And it looks like I started the year on a pretty low end (re-reading my own blog posts) because I was confused and stuck between a rock and a hard place – which was the catalyst that led to the fallout between my friend and I in April.
I can’t believe this has been my year. Sounds like I’ve accomplished a lot, and time was partly wisely-spent. I feel like I should have learned a lot, too, but reading back on my blog posts, it doesn’t seem like I’ve grown much (despite making a major decision). I still get tripped by the same problems when it comes to friendship. It is not as easy as I thought… but I will continue to work on it!
Here’s to hoping the year to come be filled with laughter, joy, happiness, and spontaneity, friends!
