Next to Never

(Original post date: April 3rd, 2011)

Have I told you that I’m writing a story? I can’t remember if I did. I am becoming very inconsistent with my posts, and even more inconsistent in my stream of consciousness when I’m writing here.

I told a friend who thought I had a crush on her about my actual crush tonight. I had avoided the topic because there really isn’t anything to say about it. It was a non-existent friendship and more of a acquaintanceship. I may have made the wrong moves and it might have forever jeopardized our chances of getting together. It seems like I’ve always unconsciously pushed my crushes away. Either I come on too strong, pushed too hard and sounded too desperate. Oh, my unrequited love.

And now for something nostalgic: I went to the Karaoke with my English-speaking friends today, and this song wasn’t on their playlist — No, I’m not directing this to anyone; if I did it’d be crush-suicide and my chances will literally be next to never! Heard it on the radio recently and I just love this song so much…