In Another Life

(Original post date: December 4th, 2010)

I’m sorry for making you feel so miserable that I probably ruined your night. I’m sorry I worked up the courage to open my mouth and speak to you. I’m sorry that you can’t stand me so much that you have to turn away as soon as I try to say something. I’m sorry you saw me. I’m sorry that I can’t stop looking at you. I’m sorry that I was dancing with your friends. I’m sorry for making you feel awkward when I’m in the room (because I know you do). I’m sorry things got so out of hand. I’m sorry for making you feel uncomfortable around me. I’m sorry for having sent you emotional texts. I’m sorry you had to stand outside in the cold in that cute dress just so you can get away from me and take a little break. I’m sorry for not giving you enough time. I’m sorry that I couldn’t stay away. I’m sorry for wanting to make things better so I can be a part of your life again. I’m sorry for invading your “scene”. I’m sorry that we can’t talk anymore, let alone hang out. I’m sorry that you probably regret for ever being my friend once. I’m sorry that you won’t get to know me. I’m sorry that every time I hear those songs I’ll still think of you. I’m sorry that I keep wishing upon the stars that when I look at them, you are too. I’m sorry we won’t get to celebrate the holidays with each other’s well wishes. I’m sorry that I want to avoid running into you again so that you could enjoy your life. I’m sorry I couldn’t leave you alone. I’m sorry for being such a weirdo.

I’m sorry. The way I’m holding onto you probably makes you feel like you can’t breathe. I’m sorry. But I promise you I’m not a stalker!!! I just want to know what’s up because I can’t stand your mysterious silence…

I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Maybe we’ll be friends again. Some time… in another life :(