Holding Out? Or Just Holding It In?

A friend asked me today about my previous relationships. My instinctive answer: “there are none”. But really, when I think about it, were there none?

Honestly, if you really want to count, there could be two. But I don’t because we weren’t ever committed to each other. So there was no “relationship” to begin with. We touched on the subject, but nothing was ever fruition. So I guess you could say that there were two close calls. Then really, I have no previous relationship whatsoever.

And I’m fine with that. I don’t hide it from people. I often wonder what it’ll be like when I do become involved with someone; when I begin to have a romantic relationship. How will that change how I behave, how I dress, or who I am?

Then there are times when I wonder why I’ve not had a relationship yet. I am going to turn 22 in less than 6 months, and I have never been in a committed relationship? It sounds bewildering, but sometimes it feels that I am going to have only one relationship in my life —the one that will ultimately end in marriage.

So am I really waiting for that special person, or am I being too nit-picky about who I date?